::Fairy On The Moon::

BRAZIL WONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

alrite!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ronaldo is a true hero! hes the man alrite!!!!!!!!!! yeh!!

the germans can just go home now..haha u shulda seen oliver kahns face..guess he aint the worlds best goalkeeper anymore huh.. :OP bleah..how could germany even tink for even one second that they could beat brazil? its impossible...
yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5 time world champion!!! and in 4 years time..rest assured..they will emerge winners agaiN! have u ever seen such power skills? awesome ...fancy footwork man.. singapore can forget abt EVER making it to the world cup! haH!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Go bRazIL!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

common tests are over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
im gona do damn badly..but hey? wads new..im sure every one keeps groaning and moaning abt how bad its gona be ..but wads done canot be undone and hey..i tink ill wait till i get the results then worry.. im quite happy anywae coz fer the first time i didnt pass up a blank essay for geog!!! i hope ill get an E ..pls let me get an E.. i dun tink ill get an F coz i realie wrote alot...and wasted so much pen ink! ill complain if i do man

ive been enjoying myself so much this entire weekend..i tink ill give myself an extended break tmr, (mondae) coz i still dun have the back-to-sch mood and i need to catch up on my beauty sleep.. :OP~ bleahzz..
ive been playing non stop and need some time to rest

ive watched 2 movies thsi weekend..the eye and insomnia
i tink the eye is pretty freaky coz i kept screaming and everyone was screaming, iTs quite screwed up coz its very shocking. its not as scary as dark waters but just jumpy shocking, u noe the type..cheap thrill kind la. I think the GHOSTS in the movie were pretty gross with purple toungues and such and that realie put me off! but the guy in the movie was superly cute so it was quite worth the money!!

i just dun get insomnia..its one movie that..i dunno how to describe la..its not bad but its realie not my type..its one movie where i dun realie get any after feeling. its not sucky but yet im wouldnt say its that fantastic..its just kinda weird and morbid and it reallie dosent deserve 4 and a half stars! i tink u shuld watch it on vcd!
not realie worth eight bucks!

stayed over at caifangs house on fri...

went shopping on sat..woooo hoo...had a damn good time..
superly broke though :OP~

theres a something ive been thinking abt..if a guy is a jerk..shuld u tell him?
like if hes realie a horrid jerk shuld u tell him straight to his face wad u tink abt him?

~~~gO BRAZIL~~~*

dawn fairy on the moon at 6/30/2002

Sunday, June 23, 2002

wad is the world coming to???!
i still cant believe korea beat spain!!!!!!!!!!!!!
UGH

dawn fairy on the moon at 6/23/2002

if murder wasnt such a terrible sin ..im convinced my sister wouldnt be alive now..

sighz..i wish she just stayed in malaysia and not come back forever...the min shes home, equilibirum is thrown into disarray, peace is shattered and general chaoz prevails. i refuse to be drawn into a quarell with her. i tink my self control is superb considering the fact i havent yelled at her yet.. its a long story so i aint gona elaborate. but wads new? i shant brood over this. now i cant concentrate on my geog coz of her. sighz..im confirm going to fail now. at least ill have someone to blame wen i fail. quite a comforting thought!

i dunno wad the world is coming to nowdays.. first korea got in, and now the bloody turks! i realie dislike turkey coz they beat japan! ahhhhhhhhhhhh...my poor nakarta....damn la... btu anywae im so glad brazil got in! im just reallie sorry spain didnt get in! i was so hoping they would win...but alaz..sighz..those koreanz r all so old and ugly..dunno how they win also..play also not stylo one..unlike those brazillians whu show some superb style. anywae i aint placing anymore bets coz this years world cup is super screwed up and the referees r just kayu one.. :OP

its abit late but im starting to panic..its common tests next week and im still clueless..as usual but somehow im feeling more scared then usual..maybe its coz im wisening up and maturing..oh well :OP.. i bet everyone in the entire rjc has finished studying for their cts.. i hate being such a slacker but i cant help it.. :OP i cant seem to cram all that geog in my brain..im reallie dead this time..i tink even a miracle cant help me. wads worse is its gona be all my fault tt ive failed. sighz..prepare to die...die...die...

im quite scared to go back to school..sighz...and ill have to go into the same routine of being late fer school and seeing chin b***h everydae again. and prepare to get the parents letter..the one u get wen u do badly fer tests.. hellp....im just a kid...oh spare me!!!! i cant take this TRAUMA anymore.!?!?! there i go overeacting again..sometimes i wunder if ive got a spilt personality..im a living dr jekyll and mr hyde...NOT wad a horrifying thought.

havent seen p b for a month or let alone tok to him..i wunder how he is now..i tink the two of us have a superly weird frendship..its like..i dunno ..hard to describe. in a sense he kinda knows stuff abt me but yet i find it hard to be really close to him. i feel like theres a barrier. i wonder if its the whole religion thing. i mean religion is good and wonderful, but sometimes im tired of being constantly reminded of "the fear of the lord" and the whole issue of "God is trying to discipline you.." thing. i hope he dosent start at that when school starts again. God is good...yeay i know, but sometimes i need some reallie solid advice. I guess he tries to be helpful but it kinda turns out wrong, and maybe coz we arent on e same wavelength. And wen he told me the last time he spent n hour praying her me and neglected his studies, i felt pretty bad. i wonder wad he prayed for??? and wen i tink of "god trying to discipline me" as he puts it ..i alwaes wonder "why me" and he says the same thing all the time " coz God loves you" oh well. wasnt exactly the answer i was searching for. anywae he has to be the MOST godly holy person ive ever known. despite our queer frendship, he has a good heart. which isnt alwaes a good thing. sometimes i alwaes ask him why he does the things he does but he just shrugs. we talk alot and stuff but somehow i feel that ill never understand him. sometimes im touched by him sometimes im so annoyed i wanna clobber him. maybe it irritates me coz i just cant figure him out! argh!

if i have to go back to sch and hear one of his spiritual disciplining talks again ill just die. i know hell is scary..so ill be a good gal. :OP im a pretty good gal apart frm some stuff which arent major anywae.. :Op i dunno...everyone seems a little weird nowadays...or maybe its just me!
maybe im becoming weird too.. :OP

hong ta is tempting me wif thoughts abt brownies now..hey man...whens my treat? uve owed me since sec 4 i tink!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.. :OP how many years laioz..2 or 3 years?? :OP

one more dae to my death
will somebody jus mourn fer me?!??!?!?!? uRGH! why do i have the feeling im the onli one pitying myself? haha

i wan sunflowers....grant my last wish...anybody..

dawn fairy on the moon at 6/23/2002

Wednesday, June 19, 2002

i just came back frm my section chalet last nite!!
it was the chalet wif e least pple but it was QUITEE fun la..tho the afternoon was boring..i learnt few new interesting card games..
then we went to escape the theme park
somehow theme parks just seem more..magical and cool at nite

i dunno why but these amusement parks ust seem way more fun at nite and though i think escape is pretty lame..im kinda hooked on the "cadbury revolver" ride.. its superly fun..it goes all the way up in the air, then does a 360 degree turn..and it keeps going up and down and turning 360 degrees..its super fun coz it feels like flying but it looks and FEEEEEEEEEEEELS damn scary...esp wen u r way up in the air and hanging upside down..its like ..i dunno..u feel like ure abt to fall! i was pretty terrfied before the ride..and during the ride, but it wasnt tt bad after all coz i kept closing my eyes! somehow stuff seems less scary wen u close ur eyes!

and i dunno..the feeling is addictive..tt revolver thing is one of those rides tt psyches u up fer eveything else! an just wen i finally had the guts to take the wet and wild ride which is this stupid thing with a pretty high drop all the way down, the ride was closed! which was quite a good thing coz i was feeling pretty chicken. i hate these drop u all the way down rides coz my heart just sinks all the way down!

i tink the rollercoaster was pretty scary..not coz it was going tt fast but coz the drops..were super terrfying..i told u at hate all the drops in the rides.. the sideway jerksin roller coasters r ok though. pretty bearable!

the pesi revolver was quite fun, though i sat the first time with my eyes closed..then second time with my eyes open! and it was quite fun with my eye open/ i tink i was already too giddy to get frightened!!! anywae i still like the revlover ride coz it feels like flying and its quite thrilling la.
okay so im pathetic..like talking abt escape, but well..there aint no disneyland here so i dun have a choice wad.. :OP

went to delifrance with lee min to study geog todae. i cant believe i actually attempted to study..sighz..its amazing..im so proud of myself. but since common tests are like in a few daes time, and ive been slacking big time this holidays, i simply had to do some damage control. i have given up totally on econs. its like..i have to sacriface one la. i mean i dun wanna do badly fer all rite? so i guess ill just sacriface one and get a fairly decent mark (by which i mean an E) for the rest. its realie scary coz i dun reallie like e feeling of sitting the exam hall completely unprepared and just not knowing wad to write wen everyone else is scribbling away furiously. believe me i know how it feels like coz ive been thru it before!!

i handed up an empty geog essay before like last year and it was an awful feeling. actually it was one empty essay and the other with 3 lines on it. the said to hand up and piece of paper whether we did it or not and i had to. i completely didnt study fer tt so i didnt know wad to write, and i got like 0/25 for one essay and 1/25 for the other which made it 3/50 its the lowest damnn thing ive gotten in my entire life. and u know wad was scary? it wasnt my marks, it was the fact tt i still remanined cool and nonchalent after getting it and the scariest thing is i realised i didint reallie give a damn abt my results and i was wondering wad was fer lunch. it may sound funny but it isnt. its scary and the thing tt still scares me now..is i still dun care.

i got pretty scared last year coz i tot i may not get promoted. but thankfully i did...sighz. i guess it was the coolest makr i ever got in my entire life and i can safely tell everyone tt yes..it is truly possible to get a 0 on a paper and its not something tt just happens in books

now back to todae..i shure hope the same thing dosent happen again next week though ive a feeling history may just repeat itself. a scary thought indeedq its miserble wen the rest of e smart muggers r scribbing away and u dun even have a word to write. pple alwaes tell me they have no time to finish and i was wondered why. i tink i have way too much time..haha

i onli managed to study 2 chapters todae. its frightening coz ive got at least 50 chapters.. oh well..with a miracle ill just get like E...i reallie hope i can get an E ..its a pass lor..oh no..im getting more and more frighten as time passes. i dun wan the holidaes to ever stop and i dun wan sch to ever start.
im so sick and tired of studying and i hate studying so damn much
i wanna move to hwawaii , sit on the beach, surf, boy watch and slack all day..argh and go to beach parites at nite and dance the nite away! sighz..instead im stuck in school...and the uniform is super ugly as well! im tired of school!!!!! urgh...tired of studying..i wanna slack..waste my life away. ok, i think maybe i juz made the wrong choice and chose the wrong subjects

its scary..ive never realie hated studying until now..sighz..

maybe im turning into a juvenile delinquent after all.. :P

dawn fairy on the moon at 6/19/2002

Thursday, June 13, 2002

mm...
went to east coast park yesterdae! i feel so good...
its been a long time since i got to go to the beacH! damn fun..
we bowled and played pool..and im quite pleased coz considering the fact i havent done either for a long time..i performed pretty well so it was a pretty good dae!

sighz..im FREAKING pissed now. number one..at my own stupidity..number two at my mum.. i mean.. she threw away some damn impt worksheet of mine by mistake i tink..and she kept saying itsnot her fault..not her fault then whos fault? my fault meh? my impt stuff iput nicely on e table and she just throw..i was sOOOOOOOOOOOOO pissed you know. thats life i tell you. the impt stuff ALWAYS has to end up missing eventually...i went arnd screwing my whole room trying to find that B****Y worksheet but wif no availl..i was SO DAMN frustrated. to make things worse this idiot guy who has been trying to erm..u noe..well.. jio me..is irritating the hell out of me by givin me these erm "witty one-liners" (or so he thinks) and making a SAD ATTEMPT to flirt with me. Goodness..im so in no mood for flirting..and let alone with him. GOODNESS..i mean if wan to flirt can also try harder rite..i mean if u cant flirt then dun do it la.. (lame lines like "ill show u mine if u show me urs") wad the .....??!?!

goodness..the whole prob is he thinks hes so macho..im sorry if im being evil..im just in a bad mood and he .. is making it worse...and hes trying to unload his lifestory to me now and trying to pry into my private stuff...URGH.. anywae we aint tokking anymore coz i kinda let himnoe i wasnt realie interested in his life..sighz..haha

ok i noe im being bad but im kinda in an awful mood now. my worksheet is gone..quarelled with mum..stupid guy acting macho and my face has a MAJOR OUTBREAK OF PIMPLEs...i dun wanna go out like ever...i need paperbags. i swear those pimples r so huge and red..URGH...my life is screwed..

havent study for common tests tloo..with luck ill get like o for everything..and thats damnn good already. at least its not an f....HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP...its all my damn fault anywae. Im lazy..i slack and i dun reallie give a damn. no wonder my mum gave up..hiaz.. okay..enuff of complaning.. i shall try to force myself to at least study a little ..a get ready my "oh..SOBZ* but i tried my best...im reallie tired ok..i did study! look at these eyebags..sobz*" speech.. i feel so guilty wen i do tt..and i reallie feel very bad after quarelling wif my mum. sometimes i blame her..but sometimes i blame myself..sigghz..

alcohol and beef kuay teow do not mix...i can attest to tt..
i puked out like everything after several cups of alcohol and beef kuay teow..i have also sworn never ever to get drunk again coz i do realie funny things after i get drunk and hangovers i get are realie bad..

i reallie reallie like screwdrivers..i dunno why..im now addicted to it..its bad fer my liver so ive gota stop!

we had so much fun tt day!
dancing on top of the podium...and no one else was on the podium...
hahaa..its was so fun..one of the craziest wildest things ive ever done.

ahh...now ive calmed down now..i feel so much better...perhaps now i shall msg dat guy and ask him abt his problems and if hes ok..haha..im a nice person after all deep inside wad.. :OP

dawn fairy on the moon at 6/13/2002

Saturday, June 08, 2002

i tried to make the damn font bigger u noe..
i reallie reallie tried
sorry i kinda failed i guess.. sighz

todae was a damn tiring day! went out like e whole dae.. was shopping with steph in the morning, then had tuition in the afternoon, ( and i was fashionably late-30 mins of coz) and at nite, i had the camp synergy thank you party thing, which wasnt bad actually..tho very few pple came..sighzzzz

i loathe econs tuition..actually its not that bad la..i tink real econs classes and lectures in sch r worse coz of...a certain chin b***H. thank God i have this holidaes to recover from seeing her face day in a day out. if not fer the holidaes i realie wouldnt noe how to preserve my sanity already..
now i have onli two weeks more...moan...then ill have to start seeing her face again. sighz. cant she just wear a paper bag to school. i feel so BAAAADDDDDD and sooo NAUGHTYYYYY wen im arnd her...wen im arnd her..i wanna do rEEEAAAAL badd stuff..like i alwaes feel like flashing my third finger at her whenever i see her, but i have to supress these urges. Im shure im not e onli one with the same sentiments. so im not just being paranoid..

sighz...its been a long time since i felt good...since i felt relief...io last time i felt good was when i ripped up all my econs worksheets.
stupid thing to do..but i felt so good..a surge of relief...
i wunder if ill feel as good..if...i...did something REAAALIE BAAAAD to chin b***H...aiyah..never mind..

im freakin broke..im freakin in debt and shopping freakin tempts me..i just saw so many stuff i want now,,,shopping is a sin man...but its yea....it feels damn good..haha...
im now having waithdrawal symptoms coz i aint got the cash!...get me a sugar daddy like now! like quick!!! wheres my suagr daddy!??!?!! urgh..

..lee min...
rem wad i told u on fridae?
yupz..abt success and talents and strengths...?
i tink i know wad my strength is at last!! SPLURGING..

..tink i can make a living outta that?

dawn fairy on the moon at 6/08/2002

Wednesday, June 05, 2002

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dawn fairy on the moon at 6/05/2002

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dawn fairy on the moon at 6/05/2002

Sunday, June 02, 2002

im back from camp synergy!!!!!
and i survived!!!! wow..i tot i would never get thru it but i did! im so worn out and tired.but that camp was ONE EXPEReince i would never ever forget,,not fer the rest of my life!

firstly, my perception of normal(tech kids) and juvenile delinquents have reallie changed...its amazing how one can totally chnage when one actually sees more of the world. these kids were super hyper and over enthu..hahaa..and they were soooooo naughty i felt like taking the parang and killing them..haha (kidding) but at times they r so incredibly funny and sweet u just wanna hug them and sayang them! its reallie mixed feelings i get wen im with them. i rem the first day of camp, it was awful and i reallie wanted to go home..i was like thinking "oh no dawn..wad kinda shit have u gotten urself into?!??!?! u r an idiot!!" and i didnt have a clue how i was gona survive fer the next few daes. i was full of regret, and now...5 days later, not onli do i not regret going fer e camp..but i actually kinda miss camp and i wanna go back! haha..i reallie wanna go back..i had so much fun esp on e last dae.

ii dun have any voice left coz i kinda lost it at camp..after cheering so enthusiastically and screaming at the kiods in my grp wen they misbehaved...(which was like 3/4 the time) they were all so rude noisy and unco-operative at first i tot i would go mad just trying to make them plae the games properly! but at the end, they becum supportive and it was kinda heart warming in all!
i never knew id see so much or learn tt much in camp but i realie did. and i love those kids and i reallie wanna continue helping them. the aftwr feeling is just the most awesome thing in the world..

i got saboed by my grp countless of times..they r quite terrible realie..haha everytime camp instructor would ask fer someone to go on stage and do something embaraasing..they would all start chanting my name and i would be forced to go up on stage. i rem i was cursing ans swearing coz i was wondering why im alwaes the one getting sabo-ed, like i had to do these stupid dances amd sing songs and get a raw egg cracked over my head..it still stinks..haha but i tink in the end it was quite sweet coz they did thank us fer our efforts and said they liked and appreciated us..tho they loved to disturb me and bully me..haha

it was touching coz at first i was wondering how i would ever get to them, but finnaly i managed to...and thats the cool thing! theze kids fight alot esp wif fists..so u gotta learn to control them and their usage of vulgarity and their rebel at times nature.. but after u get to noe them they r reallie not a bad lot! i tink i reallie pity them coz most of em, coming frm normal tech stream have extremely low self esteem ..knowing tt after4 years of education ITE lies ahead fer them. i feel so bad coz they r so sweet and innoncet (s0me..but some r super beng poser and i dun wish to comment..ARGG..haha) and it muz be realie hard fer them. i never knew there was a diff btwn normal(acadamic) and normal(tech) until i was told tt normal tech is alot worse ...and they cant even take exams fer coz its ite str8 for them, Its reallie heart breaking to know of this fact. i tink singapores education system is far too rigid! I hope things will change one dae..i realise the problem is that singapore edcation system does not believe in giving second chances. i cant see why these kids future shuld be decided at a tender age of p6 and i tink its time pple stopped discrimnating against them coz they r all beautiful in their own ways. some of them may be delinquents, but they still have wonderful qualities, and no one is perfect

i guess i was too caught up in my own world and never saw more stuff ..
ive decided to start givin tution to n level and ite kids..i never felt so right before..i guess after the camp..i know this is wad i realie wanna do!

haizzz.im quite tired out now coz the campe we sooooooo tiring and i had sats yesterdae as well! we played seo many cool games at camp..tho the kids ddint reallie wanna plae but im glad it all turned out fine.. some of the other grps of very un-enthu and all super sian..and mine was opposite coz they had too much energY! its scary.haha but im thankful!

made quite some new frends at camp too..they r all reallie nice pple! im realie glad i got a chance to meet new pple and frends,, and all the camp faciliators we so incredible good
i say the camp was a success!
i miss it..

..i wanna go back..

theres so much to say but so little space and i dunno where to start..sheesh..maybe ill sleep first then continue another dae..

dawn fairy on the moon at 6/02/2002